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I think it’s time I stop worrying about being part of an already existing community and just identify/make my own.

My recovery rate for drinking sometimes is way off the charts. I also drank pickle juice just now. 

Iunno why I did but iunno I just really like pickle juice and thought it would sober me up. 

I also drank water.

But now I’m too awake to sleep and I’m thinking too much.

I’m almost at 1,900 followers close to 2,000

That’s a lot of people following dead horses. 

Or dead anything. 

Why am I up?

Aye dat new movie’s animation is pretty awesome. Loving how much more alive/expressive everything looks!

Can I play with all of you cool artists can I can I oh please can I have fun with the cool kids

I just don’t know where to start! I want to get my webpages looking awesome and maybe design assets that don’t look like garbage. I just have no idea where to start and I feel pretty dumb because of it. 

It’s kinda like me to be this way. I’m so about the creative process that when it comes to doing anything technical like this, I shy away from it because of my lack of experience. I could afford to have a better look though, and I really want to look more professional than this. 

URGH. 

I guess I’m asking for help, but this is a stupid way to ask for it. 

I really outta get over myself and try asking all the artist friends I know that have done this already, but I’m usually just paranoid that people wouldn’t want to help me because of this ill conceived sense of competition this community sometimes tends to send off. If kind of keeps me from wanting to ask for help myself because I mean, fuck me right? Learn how to do it yourself because I did kind of deal. 

Iunno. 

Then I don’t go out of my way to learn it or ask for help on the matter, so I just stunt myself. 

;~; 

Sheesh I kinda realized that I haven’t posted anything of substance for almost 3 weeks… How did I get so bad at this? 

Despite how things have been, I think I’m doing alright. Been working a lot recently on various art pieces and commissions, as well as working on music stuff on the side. Nothing is being recorded yet, but it’s been refreshing to visit that side of my creative spectrum again. 

It’s something that feels completely detached from any of the associations of the artist community, and it’s a refreshing feeling to visit. I’ve been letting out a lot of my frustrations through my music, and the music really does speak for itself. 

It’s some of the best stuff I’ve written to date.

I’ve been making progress on a lot of things that have been due for some time, so once that all gets out of my way, I’m gonna be opening up commissions again. I was gonna open up icon slots and take probably a few regular commissions, but we’ll see. It all depends on my load. 

Haha load. 

Anyway, I just wanted to keep you all posted and let you all know that I am indeed alive and well. I’ve definitely been in higher spirits lately, and I’ve laid to rest some issues that have kept me back.

I’m feeling okay for once dare I say it. 

Anyway, thanks to all of those who have stuck with me through thick and thin. I feel as if I put so many of my friends through the blender at times, and yet they stick by my side to see it through.

I don’t even know what I did to deserve them.

To those of you who do stay by me, you are all remarkable people, of which I couldn’t do any of this without. 

Anyway, art is on the way!

For those of you interested in whatever I may do musically, you can follow my mod blog where I will most likely post more about that! 

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