Amazin-A: Archive

So do a lot of people. I'm pretty sure more than a quarter of all people end up being useless or a leech in the Grand scene.

Nov 14, 2018 11 notes

Hey my man I've been reading your previous posts, I see you haven't been yourself. Again this could be a side effect of your medication or not but please don't look at your life that way. Even though with the work talk, have you considered on looking at apprenticeships in art or animation? Because I believe that it would be a good step forward. Although I probably know you have look for jobs in that section, but that's the best I got. Hope your day is swell though and remember you are amazin. ;)

I would love to maybe go to school or do something like an apprenticeship in my field, but I don’t even know where to start finding something like this that I could afford or even qualify for.

College is just WAY too expensive and they require GPA’s of 3.0 or higher. I don’t have either of those. I flunked out of college in 2011. I’d have to first go to community college for like, 4 semesters, then I’d have to transfer into a 2 or 4 year program at an art school. By the time I get done with all of that, I’d be 35-36 years old, with pretty much no chance of getting hired anywhere in the industry.

So yea, I have no idea where to even look. I feel like I’m kind of on my own. I wish I hadn’t fucking wasted my 20′s being a fucking moron. I which I hadn’t been an anxious chronic liar when I was in highschool. I wish things were just a little different.

Nov 14, 2018 2 notes

The real thing is even if you don’t amount to much, that shouldn’t be a bad thing, life itself is a gift! Even if you just work a crappy job, there’s still plenty to be happy for and to enjoy

I’d rather not work a crappy job just to hold out for the “good things” in life. I want a job I enjoy. I want to contribute in a way that’s meaningful to the people I want to serve. I want to have purpose above all else.

Nov 14, 2018

you know thats not true. You will amount to something everyone and everything does.

All you gotta do is look at the people wearing 20 years of dedicated service at Walmart and you know that’s not true.

Nov 13, 2018 2 notes

I feel like my life is going to amount to nothing.

Nov 13, 2018 12 notes

It's good to still see you passionate, even when your going through this. I know you want to create art for us type of folks still, while there are other artists out there that would start to give up. I know it sucks but the first few days are the worst but your body will soon just get used to it. We can wait for knew art or hay while your sorting this stuff out you can probably show us art you never shown before. But that's your call. Again know that someone like you with your passion is amazin

thanks a bunch. hearing this sort of stuff makes going through this a little easier

Nov 13, 2018 4 notes

I’ve experienced that before too, my friend, while your situation may be different, I can say almost certainly that it’s just in your head. It feels killer, like the medication kills every creative thought you had. But it’s just you over thinking it, just try to stick with it at least another week or so, the beginning is always the worst. No matter what though you’ll figure it out <3

thanks man. I needed this.

Nov 12, 2018 2 notes

Ehh..

I’m trying really hard to be like… “medication will help me these side effects are temporary”

but honestly i’m just tired a lot and it’s making it close to impossible for me to draw and do art work.

It’s starting to get a bit tiresome, no pun intended.

I just want to draw and I feel like I can’t even do that.

It’s making me kind of paranoid that the meds will just inhibit my ability to do anything creative.

Iunno.

Nov 12, 2018 4 notes

Nov 9, 2018 5 notes

Me Update

I’ve been kinda bad about updating people here about what’s been going on with me lately, so here’s the scoop.

I went to therapy last week and got diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anxiety, and depression. So I’m now being medicated to treat those.

The medication has been hitting me hard recently. I’ve been very tired and it’s been really hard to execute anything like drawing, so I’ve been taking it easy.

It’s frustrating, but it’s either I take this medicine to fix my fucked up head, or I stay miserable.

So I gotta wait out the side effects.

Anyway, I’ve been posting a lot of my recent work to Furaffinity. If you want to see what I got there, click here.

But yes, I’ve been kinda slow recently. This is thanks to the side effects of my medication. Hopefully it won’t last for too long, but I won’t know till I stop feeling tired all the fucking time.

It is very frustrating, but what else can I do.

Nov 9, 2018 17 notes

So does this mean we might see some Fallout Equestria stuff in the near future?

Very strong possibility my friend

Nov 2, 2018 10 notes

holy fuck I haven’t been more inspired in my fucking LIFEEEE

Nov 2, 2018 17 notes

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