Amazin-A

May as well play with my name since I have it.

So I’m not sugar coating anything here’s the news!

I’m still unemployed, I have pretty much nothing in my bank accounts, all the money I make sinks into bills, my health is declining, and no one is hiring! At least from my perspective. 

I’ve been interviewed twice so far. One job turned me down, the other I couldn’t accept because it was the lousiest pay deal I’ve been offered. It was also a delivery position, so it would have placed my car under a lot of stress and I’d be spending half that money on gas/car repairs. So I declined. (it was also below minimum wage with a bunch of other lousy employment conditions attached)

Still applying everywhere but this part of the year is slow for hiring. I even checked back with the job I held before I left it in 2015, but they’re not even looking to hire, so I’m meeting resistance in a lot of fields. 

Stuck at home, kinda hate it, but eh I need to deal with it for now. 

Lets talk about some of the good. 

I’m able to make money to pay my bills, and I thank my supporters immensely for that. I do have a roof over my head, so that’s always a huge plus, even if I do have to deal with my parents for now (and their 6 dogs). My car does still function but it’s gonna need some repairs fairly soon. Still been pursuing art, despite feeling like the world is telling me not to. 

All in all not the best position to be in, but I guess to not sound like I’m just “complaining”, I am alive. 

Still looking for work though. I can’t dig myself out of the debt I’m in with art work alone. Maybe I could if I just continued to pound out what people want in commissions, but in all honestly it’s a soul crushing experience and I’m just not capable of sitting through a commission that I have absolutely no drive to do. It’s a slow and grueling experience that I really don’t want to deal with anymore. I want to pursue my art in other fashions. The only thing that sucks about that is that right now, I don’t have much of a choice. 

I’m gonna try to scale back on commissions that just numb my brain and try to accept those that are actually ones that I want to do. There’s a good handful I got recently that I really enjoyed, so hopefully I can get more like that. 

They were mostly anthro/furry works. I’ve been enjoying doing that far more than doing pony stuff constantly. Believe it or not, doing the same thing over and over gets pretty boring after a while. 

So yea, life’s a struggle, I have no money, job search has been difficult, and I have no idea what the fuck I’m doing with my life. 

Who can relate.