I’m going to be moving again tomorrow up North in California. I’ll be staying with some friends while I try to figure out what the hell I’m doing. 

I’m not gonna lie I’m in a really tight spot… Money is getting low, I’ll need to pick up a part-time job to help cover bills and expenses.

I’ll still be doing art, but it’s just gonna be really really difficult to dig myself out of the financial trap I seem to be in right now. I’ll be honest I’m kind of scared.

I feel like I’m on a path to fail and I know some people may like to hear that. 

I’m just legitimately lost and confused as to what the hell I’m doing anymore. If money weren’t such an issue, I could just take everything as it comes, but then I have taxes I have to file (of which I’ll be getting fined by the government for not being able to afford health care last year) and then in April I’ll be receiving a court verdict on a traffic violation. All while trying to pay rent, car bills, loans, and other necessities. 

I don’t think I have what it takes to cover that right now, and I’m afraid I may just lose everything. 

Life is just absolutely frightening. It’s stressful and fatiguing on your physical and mental health.

I don’t know how much longer I can last before things reach a boiling point and I’m forced to fold. 

Los Angeles has been an experience. A very expensive experience. In the end, it’s not what I want. I want something else, and yet I still can’t pin-point what that is. 

I’m sorry everyone. I’m just venting a bit, but I figured I owe it to all of you to let you know what my situation is like right now.

On a lighter note, I just hit over 700+ followers on this blog. I feel like I just thanked you all for 600 like… a week or two ago. 

So thanks again for the continual growth of my art blog. It helps so much more than you all may think. 

This is what I enjoy, but it’s also helping me stay afloat, both financially and mentally. 

So thank you all so much for your support and understanding. It means the world to me.