There's something wrong with you mentally... you know that, right? Your conscious mind may not admit it... but subconsciously... it's why you're into all of this. You can't admit you're fucked up. So you rationalize it into something sexual. Ever hear of that guy who witnessed a car accident and saw a boy scout die, and he was sexually aroused by it? And he ended up snapping and killing a bunch of kids? That's you. You'll snap one day. And you won't answer this, because it's true.