Something you guys don’t know about me…

Hmm.

I think art is addicting. Let me explain.

I’ve done weed, and in some cases I continue to do so. Art, however, provides a sort of dopamine rush that I think is way more addicting than the kind I get whenever I’m under any sort of influence.

If you’ve ever received gift art from me out of random, it is probably because of this. If I find a character attractive enough, and I feel like for some reason that I want to seek someones approval, I’ll ask them if it’s alright to draw their character.

It feels entirely selfish. I know they’ll enjoy the picture I draw, so it’s kinda a win-win situation. At the same time though, I feel like it can be a problem. So far it hasn’t really presented any issues beyond my showering someone in art of their characters, but I’ve often thought about why I do it in the first place.

Sometimes I feel like it might be because I never truly fit in as a kid in school or something. So in order to find acceptance from my peers, I just do the one thing I know they’ll probably like. So as a direct result, I constantly doubt my personality has anything to wow anyone.

When I got this ask for #100, I sat there and thought about something that you all don’t know about me, and this is it tbh. The fact that this is the only thing I think I haven’t actually ever told anyone goes to show how much I doubt my own personality, to doubt it so much that I think there’s nothing of any hidden interest beyond the sort of insecurity I have about it.